the title here is a line from a lovely poem posted by Sunni and shared with me by Tina Tierson who was first a FB friend and then, after Camp last year, an in person friend who lives on the West Coast to my East Coast so we are still, also, FB friend.

Here’s the poem.

GETTING (T)HERE

you want there to be a purpose in life,
because you think of life as a stair case.

but life is a circle,
if it were any shape at all.

for’beginning’ and ‘end’ can’t assuredly be found.
‘start’ and ‘finish’ are an uneducated guess.

…you can’t pin it down
if you don’t know just what it is.

the sea does not live to its potential or not,
it is always its full expression.

It cannot help but be that.

you want to be something IN life, or OUT of it,
but the fact is you ARE it…
you can find nothing BUT it.

all your loves and losses are none other
than this.

…not rungs on a ladder, not a first step or last,
not a final trajectory in or out of love.

you are not a stair case, nor are you on one.
you are not something that is
waiting to happen.

you are what is “happening” now.

you are being,

as being is, and does,

in the only time that could ever be accounted for…

right now,
right here

all of this

Here’s a brilliant little piece of prose by sunni – have you ever written to a year?  I haven’t, but I think I just might.  I have reflected and made lists but never a letter.  To date.

The great thing about brilliant writing is that it expands your concept of the world, like looking at an original piece of art and finding it telling your stories – stories that shift every time you look at it and look away and then come back to it again, because in that space you are not the same as before.

What caught my eye in the original poem is this:

the sea does not live to its potential or not,
it is always its full expression.

It cannot help but be that.

and here’s why – you know how you hear a thing over and over and maybe even say it, same meaning different words?  Well  “it is always its full expression” is that to me, that “you are perfect as you are” only this time I heard it and it went straight to my Center – that place from whence I remind myself to move every morning and mostly forget within the hour.

This year is going to be one of those years.  Starting real estate was a transition in the real world.  Going to the retreat was a transition inside of me.  Real Estate took all of last year and what came of the retreat may well take all of this year.  It has to do with leaning toward instead of plotting and planning – in everything (including real estate).  Being, most of my life, a Type A control freak, this is, to say it mildly, a bit of a change.  And yet I think it is time and necessary.

Hold me to it.  In the meantime, what is changing in your life?  Did you plan it or is it insistently presenting, or is it hitting you over the head because you’ve been ignoring it?  Always interesting to see how change becomes.