Torso:  Island Girl, one of a kind, ceramic/clay wall sculpture by Tammy Vitale, $750.00.

Life just shifted into warp speed!  I called the Buyer’s Market folks just to be sure I wasn’t in the show and got a call back that, well, yes indeed I could be as they had created 2 spots out of one (because of a cancellation) so now have space for me.  I was next in line!

So I am going.  Which totally changes my view of myself (okay, that’s silly, but it does).  I mean, I got juried in, which is very cool as in the past I’ve had difficulty getting juried into shows.  And then there was no space for me, and part of me thought:  oh, they’ll probably just string me along.  But here it is, I’m in.  And for good or bad or in between, my view of myself and my art just took a quantum leap.

Philadelphia Buyer’s Market here I come!

All my research indicates this is exactly, precisely where I should be, so by the end of February I will know if I was correct.  Correct or not, I have to return in August since it is a two show contract.  Call it paying for my graduate degree in art marketing (all in one fell swoop – but I’ve always liked the challenge of accelerated courses in school!).

I’ve plotted out how much work I can hang, slotted that number into the weeks I have left before the show, counted the torsos that aren’t  from the new  Sacred line, and realize that I don’t have to make myself crazy in order to make this happen.  I just have to spend a lot of money.  You know what – I’ll spend the money to being crazy any day (of course, when the bills roll in that is liable to yank up some of the old fears around "not enough."  But I DO have enough.  And I owe my art and myself this opportunity to learn more about what I’ve always thought of as "the big time.")

I was awake at 4 am this morning.  I’m hoping that doesn’t continue as I’ve nailed down what’s needed and made a check list which in theory should calm the hamster (who I haven’t heard from recently – must have been really good tape I bound her up with last fall).

Next week I’m going to a glass shop (more $$$ – what the heck, you have to spend money to make money, right?) and will move up the trying out of a glass torso to really soon so that if it works I can take it with me to Philadelphia.  Now everyone must send white light and blessings to my old van so that she gets me to the show and back, because I’m leaving Phila on Monday (load out starts at 3 pm – with luck I’ll be on the road by 6 pm….rush hour?  Anyone know Philadelphia?) and have a plane to catch on Tuesday, 10 am, in D.C. (which means getting there at least by 8 am and that means dealing with rush hour in DC – nothing like running things together!).

I’m going to give credit to my work with One Coach for even thinking I could do this and thus following through to getting more information and applying to the show last November, and for creating a space where I could establish a mind set that I’m worth it.  I’m going to give Alyson Stanfield credit for helping me with a lot of the day to day stuff of being an artist, including creating a space for discussion, and daily reminders that art comes first!  And Tama Kieves’ meditations from her on-line classes for affirmations that work.  The combination of these programs has been magic for me!

thought for the day:  The nonphysical part of the world is where all the real power is.  It’s like the nuclear power plant to which each of us has equal and total access:  anytime, anywhere.  Most people plug into the equivalent of wall sockets when they have the choice and ability to plug into the infinite source of all supply.

Through thought, you can tap into this great resource.  Your job is to choose what you want to create, hold onto that image as clearly and as often as you can, and allow whatever it is you desire to move from the nonphysical to the physical.  This does not mean that you just wait and see.  You are responsible for doing everything you can to get closer to the goal you desire, as well…  The truth is you don’t know how many days, weeks or years it takes to create something from the nonphysical universe into the physical.  I suggest that you believe without the physical evidence, holding onto the truth that the universe is perfect and will move into form whatever you desire if you just do the planting and take care of the seeds.  Have faith.  John Assaraf, The Street Kid’s Guide to Having It all.  (I have no idea why this section decided to underline, and it’s late so I’m not going to try to figure it out)