In my dream I am walking around in a big house where there has been a family gathering.  Then I find myself in a Mall, and think, “I’ll have to tell Shawn [hubby] I found the retail section.  So I’m heading back to the big building and run into 3 women shopping.  I can’t remember what our interaction was but the room is full of crystal and there is a deep burgundy oriental rug like the one in my office and I remember they all had gray hair.

My dog Sueno is with me in the crystal room. Suddenly I notice that she isn’t putting her right hind leg down and is limping on her left front paw.  I scoop her up and start crying and feel like I have to get back home.  I find the door out of the mall and I can see the big building where the family gathering was but can’t find my way back in.  So I stop in a Pub that is full of men laughing and telling jokes.  

In the pub I have a feeling of unease because of all the men but I am really concerned about getting back home, so I look around.  I’m getting a bit frantic and then a large man who had been across the room,  comes over to aid me.  Behind the bar another man whispers “I’ll pretend I’m making a call.”  I say:  “I heard you!” and he says he’s just saying that to the person on the phone (wall phone with cord).  Sueno is getting worse and by now, I’m getting hysterical.  I decide to leave but I can’t find my shoes.  

The big helpful man takes me over to a quiet corner and hands me an in-ear phone.  I say I don’t know how to use it and then Sueno feels all flat and I fear she is dead.  

Now I am wailing.  I say to the man, “You aren’t helping me! ” and begin to look again among the shoes on the floor for mine so that I can leave.  They aren’t there.  I think about its being cold outside and that I will go anyways.  I say more to myself than anyone, “Someone stole my shoes.”  A waitress says, “Not in here!  No one would steal your shoes here!” and as I walk away from her and out the door I think “Pfft.  They’re gone.  They’re stolen.”  

When I get out the door I notice I have socks on and my feet will be warm.  I am in a beautiful warm courtyard and Sueno revives.  To my left I see two guina pigs resting under a round mosaic side table and reach down to pet them.  They turn into beautiful soft sleek glass alive roosters and I marvel at their beautiful colors and silky feel.  Then I wake up.

This was what I call an early morning anxiety dream.  They occur when I wake up around 5 am and then go back to sleep.  They usually revolve around not being able to find my car, but this time it was shoes and my pug.  And when I woke, it remained pretty vivid.

I didn’t think much about it and went about my morning routine.  In the shower the thought came to me:  Sueno is your instinct/intuition.  You got away from your intuition by trying to fit into a mold that many on-line gurus were selling of making lots of money fast fast fast.  You allowed yourself to be lured away from your home and your intuition was dying.  Wanting to get back to Shawn was wanting to get back to your anima (the male aspect of a female’s persona), your interior warrior.  Instead, you settled for a while for looking for rescue.  Which didn’t work.  Finally you undertook to save yourself, your intuition revived and you were joined by other natural beings who met your on your path.

Sounded right to me – and very much like the last 3 or 4 years that I have been floundering.  That has changed recently by allowing myself room for self-care and spending time in communities and with guides who more fit my needs.  I took the dream as a gift and as support for the new clarity I have gained by focusing on self-care, getting back in touch with my own unique intuition and spirit, and allowing all of that to flow through me to a redesign of how I am being in the world.    I believe I am to understand that  when I listen to my own interior voice, the path become clearer, and aid comes not in the form of rescue (a side, delaying, dead-end path) but in trusting my self to have what I need (socks) and to get guidance (but not rescue) along the way.

Then I looked up dream symbols on line just for fun.

“The Guinea Pig brings like-minded people to you with its appearance in your life.  No matter how different your beliefs are from the norm, you will find yourself meeting people who think like you do.  When this totem appears, it signals a time to explore new possibilities, a time to open or reopen spiritual doors and also brings a cautionary message:  are you being too solitary in your spiritual practices.  Do you need to seek out groups to help with your healing work?”

“Rootser is a Guardian, watcher and protector of the family. He is keenly aware of the surroundings within the physical and spiritual realms. He stimulates insights and forthrightness and confidence. Rooster has enthusiasm with optimism and will teach you the same. It’s time to open to the great mystery of the pasts to find your hidden self. Rooster will enlighten your path to take notice of your hidden powers. Time to welcome the sun with your voice and communication abilities with poise, confidence and assuredness. Rooster will show the power of pursuasion and influence to accomplish endeavors. Rooster will aid in the process of presentation whether it be physical meetings or spiritual ones, communicating your heart’s intents and desires will be Rooster’s lesson.”

Shoes and socks:  “Shoes often represent your individuality and so losing your shoes indicates that you feel you are losing your identity in some way.  Looking down at your feet suggests that you are recovering your footing after experiencing some form of change in your waking life. This was probably a change in your role or perceived status in your work situation. Walking through the city in your socks shows that are more than capable of doing what is expected of you in your new role but that you are concerned about your lack of formal recognition from those around you.”

Dog:  “To see a dog in your dream symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it indicates some inner conflict within yourself. It may also indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness. If the dog is dead or dying, then it means a loss of a good friend or a deterioration of your instincts. ”

What do you think?

Have you had any good dreams lately, or insights that you’d like to share?  Love to hear them!

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